The Journey On Shore: Unsure, But Going Forward! – Interview Part Two

 

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Part-Two of an Interview with Patricia Pickering reflecting on two paintings

Patricia: “As I’ve gotten out of the empty boat and walked “ashore,” I have three important rules I must abide by: First… I must guard my heart. Adversaries and enemies would like nothing more than to destroy the heart and mind work that has been done. (John 10:10).”

“Second…it is imperative to listen to the truth. Lies from the past that previously defined me must be vanquished. If I fail to protect myself, inevitably I’ll be back in the boat of addiction and despair.”

“I admire what Disney represents for you, Rosemary. You are becoming the woman that God created you to be. As you protect your own heart, and turn an ear toward the truth, God is revealing your own true purpose. You are adding to the beauty! How courageous even, as you consider returning to a place that represents the root of so much pain. Only hind-sight will reveal how that will work out for you. However, you too must park your boat – going “ashore”- in order return to that road less traveled.”

“Third…I get to choose not to let anxiety or fears control my thought life. For me, that’s a choice. When I was living in brokenness, I was paralyzed by fear, anxiety, OCD, perfectionism, and addiction. At that time, I don’t believe I had a choice because I had no tools for self-management. I wasn’t a strong person, and I needed to be surrounded by a support system in the boat of confession and recovery. It was there I too experienced my first “quiet moments.”

“Today, I have to do a check on myself; I’ve got to make sure that I’m making good choices, and ultimately I do get to choose whether fear and anxiety or serenity and truth speak to me. The choice is ultimately mine.”

“Friends shared scripture during the “quiet moments.” Jesus said, “I am the way and the truth and the life; no man comes to the Father but by me.” (John 14:6) What a great way to build one another up! In time, I found that ultimately this IS where my strength needs to come from! It is through Jesus I also discovered truth!”

“I had to be willing to spend time in the “quiet moments” where the lies were exposed. This is the same place truth is revealed. I’m grateful I didn’t come to shore until I could discern between the two. Lies are often rooted in childhood. As an adult, I discovered that what I was told kept me paralyzed in fear, anxiety, OCD, perfectionism, and destructive coping skills also known as addiction.”

“Going forward, check-ups are needed, so I get back in the boat with my support system and accountability partners. It is here where God and community affirm me. Jesus tells us in Matthew 18:20 “Where two or more are gathered, I am in your midst.” Alone, there is no fruit. Such independence without vulnerability is prideful, and that’s another lie. There’s just no room for arrogance on this journey.”

Rosemary: “Thank you, Patricia, for your willingness to share your personal reflections and insights on these two paintings. I love how you drew from both paintings, sensing connections in the works. We are all on a journey, and it is so meaningful to take a look into the past, review our current circumstances, and be able to measure growth, or to even admit the need for improvement in our lives. It is never too late to examine our lives more thoroughly, and so vital because we find out eventually that it is so true, as the philosopher stated, that “He who does not remember the past is condemned to repeat it”.  I hope your words minister to others as they do to me.”

 

 

 

 

2 Comments

    • I agree. Patricia is a delightful, and insightful, kind person who has worked hard on her journey toward healing, relying faithfully on her Creator to lead her every step of the way. Her wisdom is beyond her years, and she would attribute that to her Savior, but she must also receive credit for the endless hours she puts into learning, recovery work, bible study and diligence in her desire to honor God and become the women she was created to be. She will be the first to confirm, as you say, that it is a journey!

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